rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Thursday, February 20, 2003
-4:42:00 p.m.
heyhey!!! actualli i dun realli haf much 2 sae coz ma life's been as boring as ever...still!!!! u noe, i've been soooooo seriously depressed 4 sooooooo long now, i'm feeling a lil numb 2 it! tt's not good rite? i guess i've been feelin tt way since prelims or so...lyk i finally realised tt i was gonna leave den everyting happened so fast n i'm gone!!! i tink i'm still denying d fact...lyk everydae i go 2 skool, i feel as if i'm watching a movie or sth...lyk i'm invisible 2 everyone so it explains y everyone's ignoring mi!!! den sumtimes i juz feel lyk i'm on a holidae den soon i'll b back n everyting's gonna b back 2 normal...lyk TT's ever gonna happen!!! n it's lyk...i feel as lil distant frm maself...lyk i was lookin thru ma foto album (d onli one i could bring over!!!) n i juz saw maself wif ma frenz in ij n i couldn't recognize maself!!!! i was lyk, izz tt MI? i juz dun remember ever grinning lyk how i did in d pictures since i left...hmm...mayb i'm gettin too pyscological!!! but realli, i dun seem 2 remember maself being in s'pore animore...i'm juz sooooo dazed....n depressed! eniwaes, i was realli feelin down yesterdae so i went 2 read all d stuff u guyz gave mi wen i left plus ma autograph bk...man, did i feel encouraged!!!! seriously!!! i mean, i felt sooooo much better...lyk @ least even if nobodie realli cares 4 mi here, sumone else does! (even if it's all d wae @ d other end of d world!) it was so much better after tt...though i'm still kinda a loner but i feel better :) i dunno...sum of u mite b tinking lyk i shldn't cling on 2 d past n i've gotta move on rite? i guess it's juz tt i find sum comfort in d past...lyk i feel as if u all predicted how it'll b wen i read "it's gonna b tough but i'll b here 4 u"...realli touched mi :) n i've probably read clare's gdbye letter a thousand times!! plus ma autograph bk n all...so i juz wanna sae 2 everyone whom i've known...THANX!!!! u've realli helped mi (though u mite not noe it!)...i'm gonna b strong....so u guyz too ok? even after d results cum out (gasp!!!!!!)...hang on in there!!!
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