rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Monday, April 30, 2007
-12:16:00 a.m.
YAY!!!!! exams are allllllll over :D:D:D finally after 2 crazy weeks of studying and procrastinating...my 3rd year of uni is over @.@ omg that sounds so fast. i'm going into my fourth year. i'm going into my fourth year. I'M GOING INTO MY FOURTH YEAR! AHHHH!!!! haha auntie margaret's been saying that i'll be graduating ever since i was in my first year LOL but now it really IS coming to a close *gulp*
anyways enough of all that hoo-haas and back to the important stuff! LOL so as of now i have 2 weeks before i leave for hong kong and then...*drum roll*
SINGAPORE!!!! yes ladies and gentlemen eden the frozen mushroom is finally returning for a short (but definitely long-awaited) visit to sunny island singapore!!!! i'm still in the process of getting my tickets from hong kong to singapore but for now, it's probably gonna be from
May 18th to June 1st :D I CAN'T WAIT!!!! it's been what, almost 4 years since i've last seen u guys? and i know, the timing might suck coz i won't be able to see a couple of you guys studying overseas now but what can i say...it's the price i have to pay for cheap tickets? LOL and also coz i cant impose on my aunt for too long coz she's in the process of moving at that time too so :) but i'm looking forward to seeing the rest of you! even if once or twice, i'm happy!
okie moving on to the next most important thing: my family's moving to calgary!!!! hahaha yes within 5 years of moving here, we're uprooting and moving again...but this time it's only my parents coz my dad got a job as a pastor in a church in calgary so both him and my mum are going down but effie and i are gonna stay here and finish our degrees at the u of a :D well technically i'll be gone next year so effie's gonna be alone for the whole year...which built up alot of problems for her housing...it's been a pain for all of us (especially her though) thinking of what to do @.@
seriously, i think this semester's been really hectic for our whole family...straining all of us in different ways, bringing waves upon waves of tests. with my grandma passing away and us flying over to toronto, mummy staying in toronto for almost 3ish months, my whole not-very-smooth applications for the exchange, hong kong SAR passport and all relevant documents (which required another trip to calgary), daddy's past internship church thingy, the whole moving thing and dealing with all the problems that were arising, trying to get along with my parents and reasoning with them about all the different views we have...man this semester was tough. my classes were heavy too and i barely survived the exams @.@ getting Bs for almost all my courses were definitely not what i needed to get that scholarship to japan but still, i know i dont deserve anything better than a B for the effort i put in. let's just hope that maybe in some miraculous ways, i can still get that scholarship to lighten all my financial burdens in japan :D
LOL oh man sorry that paragraph turned out so whiny @.@ i mean of coz, this semester had it's great moments too :D japanese class was awesome (as it always is every year!) being so corny with melissa and danny (go ganguro family!), getting made fun of by aaron and marc :'D talking with the various people in our class, i love jap class because on top of learning the language, i'm free to be the person that i am...and i meet more wonderful people like sensei, mizuni, bonita, vivian and chee! :) most of these people mentioned above have either just graduated or will have graduated by the time i get back so this term is pretty much the last time i'll be having class or going to school with them :( i was sitting in my jap final last thursday and i was thinking to myself, this might very well be my last jap final ever and the last time sitting in the same classroom with these people, and i really wanted to relish that moment then...so i sat there for a longer time than i required to finish the test LOL! yes weird i know, but really, jap class has made such an impact in my life here...it's given me a glimpse of my singaporean days, a passion for something and most of all, an assurance that i am still me :) ありがとう.
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Thursday, April 26, 2007
-12:57:00 a.m.
hmm so i have my jap final tomoro and then my MIS on saturday..i can just imagine my struggle to study tomorrow and the day after, with the smell of freedom so close and yet so far... right now i dont feel like studying the rest of my jap...and i dont think i can fall asleep now even if i tried so maybe i'll waste a bit of time blogging instead haha
i've been going to bed at 2am earliest lately, but it usually takes me about an hour of tossing and turning in bed before i actually fall asleep. then i get up in the morning about 11-12, study a bit, feel sleepy by 4ish and then take a nap till dinner time...so usually because of my nap i cant fall asleep at night. it's a whole viscious cycle @.@ i cant stand the feeling of laying in my bed waiting for myself to fall asleep...and just when i can feel myself drifting off, i jerk and go back to square one again sigh...
i think there's still alot for me to work on if i wanna do good tomoro, i shld go through all the readings and run through all my vocab again...and there's the dialogue stuff too and the changing of the formal to casual forms etc. i dont wanna be feeling all competent just coz it's jap, i mean what if i dont do enough and i screw up? i'll seriously kill myself man...i had more than a week to study this @.@ but i'm so tired of studying...
feeling so freaking bleah right now, so sick of this, so sick of everything. i want to say my life sucks but then again, i dont even have a life.
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Saturday, April 21, 2007
-12:26:00 a.m.
10 things eden did on her computer to procrastinate...so far @.@
1. reformat her lappie
2. spent almost 4 days figuring out how to get her wireless connection back
3. reorganize the 1004 songs (and counting) in her iTunes to make everything consistent
4. find CD album arts for as many songs as she can to make her iTunes look pretty
5. download more songs and dramas
6. go on wiki and read up on japanese artistes
7. watch a couple of jap movies
8. burn DVDs and clear up storage space on the computers and external drives
9. read blogs
10. remake her blog template
ooo! i'm almost done eating the whole packet of cheesesticks! :D eggie benefitted alot from that, i give her a little piece for every stick that i eat ^-^ okie i really shld get back to studying...man am i unproductive @.@ hahaha
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Monday, April 02, 2007
-1:02:00 a.m.
and now...here we are, entering the crazy month of april where all end of semester assignments and projects and presentations are due. and not to mention the 2 weeks of doom when our finals are written...@.@ boom boom boom boooooooooooooooooooooooom!
the school lengthened our semester by 2 days this year...GRR. that gives me 2 days short of studying, seeing how i have 2 accounting finals back to back on the first mon and tues of the exam period! there goes my chances of pulling up my average through my final!! my exam schedule for the first week is definitely not pretty, but then again, whose exam schedules are ever pretty? LOL no matter what we get, we'll always complain, just coz it's exams haha
anyways i was really bent on writing about suz's trip over here and the blast that we had but so many things just really got to me man...what a crazy term, that's all i can say! haha i hope i can write about it when all these are over...or at least post some pictures up instead of the shortcut way of just putting them on facebook! LOL last week was my relax week and i spent way too much money and time going out and enjoying my last moments of freedom before april kicks in that i totally forgot to blog @.@ well i guess laziness was an element too hehe. but good things are worth the wait eh? ^^ i'll be back in a month :D
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