rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Wednesday, August 27, 2003
-2:49:00 p.m.
i'm contemplating whether 2 put this down or not...hmm...later so shao xing! but nvm lar *heehee* ~dozo!~
i remember the 1st time i left
many of my possessions had 2 stay
CDs, VCDs, letters n pictures
they were all taken away
i did not noe how i survived then
when part of mi was living elsewhere in this world
my life was so empty n incomplete
all i had were memories 2 keep mi on my feet
this time i came back
n took back all tt was left of mi
now i can becum myself again
n start afresh w/out feeling pain
yet sumhow i feel in midst of all these
there r still holes yet 2 b filled
1 will b. wen my dad cums over
but the rest, i guess, will stay w/ u 4ever :)
ok!!! so here's another long-awaited piece of "poetry" by eden!!!!!! *round of applause pls!!!* grinz! actualli, it's realli unpolished coz it came 2 mi while i was in bed yesterday nite :? i got up 2 write it down n viola!!! here it is!!! i noe it doesn't rhyme n doesn't realli make sense *haha!* but hey! tt's wut makes it original rite??? i noe! i shld title it:
a peep in2 eden's head!!!! *grinz* yar lar! hafn't been doing much these days...super lazy!!! n i started watching jap dramas again *hahahahahahahaha!!!*
takuya kimura's sooooooo cute!!!!!!!!!!! oi! i've been separated frm all my darling jap dramas 4 so long ok!!!! it's onlie rite i get a dose of them now tt i haf the time *grinz* i gotta go ainlay 2moro 4 my enrollment...i wonder how it'll turn out...oh well! even if ainlay turns out as stuck-up as scona...i dun realli gif a damn animore!!! i believe in maself lar, it's their own problem aniwae :) so yesh!!!
kambate eden!!!!!!!!! :)
aishiteru...
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Monday, August 25, 2003
-11:32:00 p.m.
Harlow! Hafn�t typed in ages man!!!! Sorry bout it all coz I�ve been busy moving 2 my new house *grinz* so yesh! Announcements!!!!!!
1. I�VE MOVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
2. I�M GOING @ HARRY AINLAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yap!!!! So firstly! I�ve moved 2 southside�wich is, btw, quite far frm my auntie�s place *haha!* coz she lives near the university wich is in the centre of Edmonton but we�re about a 10 mins drive frm her place :� everyting�s goin fine still�we�re in the process of unpacking n all�but we get 2 buy lotsa new stuff!!!!! *grinz* shopping spree!!! But onlie ting izz tt we dun drive so everytime we wanna buy sth, we gotta ask a auntie or uncle 2 drive us there n back�n pple r usually so busy, they can�t afford 2 waste so much time 2 let us shop slowly!!!! Man�so we haf 2 b �goal-orientated� wen we shop�but we lack almost everything in the new house it�s kinda hard u noe? N we�re trying 2 settle down properly b4 skool starts 4 mi coz then my mum will haf 2 do everything herself�STRESS!!!!! Time is tight I guess�tt�s y we�re so tired lately! Rushing here n there�n we can�t proceed w/ our unpacking unless we haf the things 2 unpack in rite??? *haha* tough man! But it�s nice lar :) keeps mi busy @ least! N i won�t feel as though I came back early 4 nothing :)
N did I mention tt I absolutely LOVE my new house????? *grinz* it�s so chio!!!!!! Ok lar�we�re renting an apartment n it actually doesn�t look too nice outside coz it�s kinda old, but inside�s newly renovated so it�s cool *grin* everything�s white *haha* the cupboards, the closets, the ceiling�the walls :�my mum decided 2 make our kitchen blue n white *haha* n the room in which effie n I sleep in is super cosy!!! Dunno y all of a sudden I�ve developed a liking 4 beds close 2 the floor so now I�m juz sleeping on a mattress�no bed frame!!!! *haha* so nice :) the place isn�t too big but enough 4 us (it's a 3 bedrm)�
small is cosy!!!!! Plus, the location�s good man!!!!! It�s convenient w/out being too nosy�coz it�s lyk, 2 bus-stops away frm southgate mall (this bus interchange) so we can walk there or take the bus�there�s lyk 5 buses on the main road!!!!!! *yay!!!!* gone r the days wen I haf 2 rush 4 the shuttle!!!!! *grinz* n the house izz oso opposite 2 ainlay so I can walk there :) nice rite?!!! It�s totally God-sent!!!! *heehee*
Yap! N I changed skool 2 ainlay�no more scona!!!! Wooohooo! Do u noe tt actually scona�s been cheating mi of my credits? Coz the ainlay counselor told mi tt O levels is equal 2 grade 11 so by rite, I could skip grade 11�but tt scona told mi tt they go by age so I gotta take the entire grade 11 again!!! According 2 them�I might even haf 2 take an extra yr 2 get enough credits 2 graduate�wut idiots man�! Juz coz they�re too lazy 2 request 4 ma credits doesn�t mean
I haf 2 stay back a yr!!!! stupid pple�but juz as well! Now I�m outta there!!!!!!! *
YAY!!!!*
*heehee* oh yeah�n guess wut? I juz came back frm a church camp during the weekend! It was SO COOL�*grinz* I finally got 2 do zipline!!!!!!!!!!!! Coz in sec 3 adventure camp, they stopped rite in front of mi coz it was gonna rain (*haha* remember bela?!?!?!!?) but I got 2 do it this time�it�s so fun!!!
Zipline ROX man!!!!! Den I did archery too..but I sucked! :� *heehee* coz the guy lar�never tell mi 2 pull the bow all the way back so all my arrows drop on2 the grass..lyk �biu�! but after tt I found out so I managed 2 get 2 arrows on2 the board tingy!!!! :) *heehee* got 2 noe karen n amanda better too! they�re so nice ok!!!! Oh yar! Amanda kinda reminds mi of Vivienne :� so cute *haha* seriously! N karen�s super crappy�xcept tt I tink she enjoys beating mi�wutever!!! Tt�s wut I get 4 suan-ing her too much I guess!!! :� den got 2 noe other pple in church too�they�re all pretty nice actually! *heehee* but the REAL highlight of the whole camp was the
~cAfeTeRiA gUy~ *haha* no lar, tt�s wut I call him onlie! I tink he�s one of the camp site part-time staff...s.o.
H.O.T.!!!!!!!! aww man�i look 4ward 2 EVERY meal coz of him *haha!* n I was hoping tt he goes 2 ainlay *muahahahahaha* as if!!! Oh well! Now the camp�s over lar so I�ll never c him again *boohoo!* *haha* but I managed 2 �tou pai� sum pictures of him *grin* ghana found out by him in the end coz the camera had flash�:� *heehee*
ok lar! I tink I shld end liao�super long post!!!!!!! Hope ur eyes r ok!!!! smile!!!
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Thursday, August 14, 2003
-11:57:00 p.m.
yo~
had cramps 2dae n it almost killed mi...so tough...it's lyk, wen u're having it, u feel lyk doing ANYTHING juz 2 lessen the pain rite? i came up w/ a list of stuff tt came 2 my mind during it tt i felt lyk doing *haha* wu liao lar :)
1. punch pple/floor/walls
2. bite the blankets
3. scream my head off (wich i did)
4. take lots of sleeping pills
5. tear off all my clothes
6. chop my tummy off
7. jump in2 a pot of boiling water
8. faint
9. anything tt will make mi unconscious (banging my head on the wall etc.)
10. go in2 my stomach(i dun tink it's my stomach but wutever) n yank the entire uterus lining off (sorry 4 being gross!!! but i dun tink any guy will read this so yar)
*haha* yar...i tink tt came 2 mi...but seriously, i would do
ANYTHING 2 make mi unconscious/fall asleep!!! it hurts so bad *sob* i wish gurls never had such tings...:(
n imagine. giving birth izz
10 times worse than cramps........
wut the hell...y muz i end up being a gurl?!?!!?!??!?!?!?!?! wouldn't being a guy make everything so much simplier???
but no i'm not thinking of a sex change
n no i'm not thinking of going crooked either
i guess there r sum things in life tt u juz haf 2 accept...whether grudgingly or willingly...so i guess it's better 2 do it willingly huh? makes our life happier juz by changing our mindset~ *haha* easier said than done :)
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Wednesday, August 13, 2003
-12:05:00 a.m.
...........................bye bye
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Thursday, August 07, 2003
-3:18:00 a.m.
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