rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Saturday, December 27, 2003
-7:30:00 p.m.
caught
Joan of Arcadia while i was @ my aunty's place yesterday....it's damn good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! never watched it b4...n i dun tink i can watch it anymore coz our reception sux so we can't get ctv...:(
I'M SO SADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Wednesday, December 17, 2003
-12:44:00 p.m.
hafn't been blogging 4 a while *haha* it's juz a WHILE in comparison 2 the past aye? ^^ aniwaez here's the major news:
MY DADDY'S HERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *yay!* rejoice rejoice rejoice *haha* though his presence makes going 2 skool harder coz c-ing him @ home 24/7 makes mi feel lyk its the hols instead of the last week of skool...IT'S THE LAST WEEK OF SKOOL!!! geez, can time get any slower???? *boohoo* i'm watching the minutes go by slowly everyday...starin @ the clock in every class (if not sleeping) n drawing furiously 2 get time past faster *haha* but can i help it if i'm not naturally interested in atomic physics??? lyk @ least there's angus n steven 4 mi 2 bug durin math or i would've died frm boredom rite? (we're only doing permutation n combination now....) but there's no one 4 mi 2 bug in phys!!!!!! so i've been nodding off daily but realli scared tt mr fung will catch mi (he's been doin tt alot these days...) :( i realli need 2 catch up on those sleeping-w/out-the-teacher-noticing techniques i mastered during mr teh's class man...*haha*
it's lunch now...i still gotta go 4 2 more classes b4 the torture's over...n it's CHEM rite after this!!!! sumhow, i alwaes fall asleep during every chem class w/out fail *haha* the ZZZZ monster's alwaes catching mi then, even if i get 2 bug my partner...*haha* but i haf a feeling she alwaes falls asleep after c-ing mi sleep *haha* coz usually wen i wake up, she's still sleeping...*haha* oh well...*haha* wut 2 do? i've been watching too much tv lately (coz my daddy's bought sum vcds over rite??? *heeehee*) n sleepin too late! i ABSOLUTELY CANNOT sleep l8r than 11 plus n expect mi 2 wake up @ 7...i'll die (lyk now...) *haha* n poor eden...couldn't catch up on her sleep on sat coz she had 2 work...:( now c y i doze off every class? *haha* n i had a bad hair day, my hair was all messed up n i'm wearing this crappy t-shirt...imgaine how i look in skool sleeping during classes ^^
geez! i can't believe i actualli wrote 2 long paragraphs on sleeping! *haha!* but aniwaes! oh yesh! i actualli saw
azaria sih online yesterday~!!! it's damn amazing *haha!* coz i was actualli online @ 4pm plus n she was online 7am plus! *haha!* yes we're fated man!!! had a realli nice chat too ^^ it's juz too bad i never realli knew her better in s'pore but oh well! it's alwaes nice 2 tok 2 pple whom i hafn't seen in yrs!! *haha*
kk, i tink lunch's seriously gonna b over!!! so tata 4 now!!! ^^
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Thursday, December 11, 2003
-4:42:00 p.m.
i'm doing it again!!!!!! dunno y i juz love filling in stuff lyk this! *haha* picked it frm effie's email this time...*grinz* looks lyk i'll take up the one frm edwina's blog soon if i'm so bored!!!! *hahaZ!*
Name: eden
Birthday: 16 nov 1986...dun u tink my birthday sounds so mi??? *haha* it even LOOKS nice written down!!! ^^
Hair: i haf no idea wut kinda colour my hair has mutated in2! *haha!* but lately i dyed it red...so it shld b darkish red w/ sum stands of light brown hair...n sum black on the top coz it's growing out *hahahaha!* pretty messed up eh???
Brothers/Sisters: 1 younger sista!!! *yay!* go effie!!!
Who lives with you: my mudder n sista
When is your bedtime?: i dunno, doesn't matter as long as i get 2 sleep 12 hrs! *haha*
-------------HAVE YOU---------------
* Ever been so drunk you blacked out: dun tink so...haf never been drunk b4! *haha* dun lyk puking u c...
* Missed school : probably no here...but mayb i skipped aep once or twice in s'pore...n lyk those retarded saturday classes we had 2 attend? u betcha! hey i wouldn't gif up my saturday sleep 4 ANYTHING...not 2 mention classes...*haha*
* Been hurt emotionally: duh...hu hasn't?
* Kept a secret from everyone: u mean my own secret? or keeping someone else's secret? probably did...but i dun remember...hafn't had a secret 4 a long time! *haha* n usually i tell EVERYTHING 2 effie...
* Had an imaginary friend: nope...deprived childhood eh? *haha!*
* Wanted to hook up with a friend: no *haha* if a guy's my fren, i wouldn't lyk him u noe? i go 4 pple i dunno *haha!*
* Cried during a Movie?: mayb...but it was probably juz my eyes getting wet, dun tink it went more than tt! n it was during SPIRITED AWAY!!!!!!! *wooohooo!!!* it's lyk the best movie ever man! n i
still feel lyk crying everytime i watch it despite having watched it 4 a gazillion times alreadi...*haha*
* Ever thought an animated character was hot?: yeah man!!! THERE'S SO MANY HOT ANIME GUYS OUT THERE!!!!! k, lyk tamahome, yuu, ranma, nuriko, tasuki, haku *haha!* geez...too many 2 name!!!
* Been on stage: yeap! 4 prefects last time...n i danced sum crappy chinese dance ting wen i was in pri 1...*haha!*
* Cut your hair?: obviously!!! wut, u tink i want 2 use my hair 2 sweep the floor is it?
----------------FAVOURITES----------------
*Shampoo: biolage!!!
*Colours: pink, purple, yellow, blue
*Night/Day: night :) but i lyk the day too!
*Lace or satin: hu cares????? geez...so gurl...
*Cartoon Character: ranma *haha!* he's so farnie!!!!!!!!! n i lyk nuriko too *grinz* very amusing characters!!!
*Advertisment: dunno leh...hafn't watched tv 4 a LOOOOOONG time...
*Movie(s): SPIRITED AWAY!!!!!!!!!! i love haku n chihiro!!!! k, then there's pirates n LOTRs...*hehe* GO LEGOLAS!!!!!!
*Numbers: 4, 16...12? 15?
*Ice Cream: vanilla! *haha* actualli i lyk all kinds of ice-cream!!!! i mean...it's food leh!!!!
*Subject: wut???!!!! this is lyk those crappy questions in those primary skool autograph bk!!! *haha* but nvm! i lyk math lar...coz it's freakin easy...n i get 2 tok 2 lotza pple there too!! *haha* n art too ^^ coz i lyk sumone in there!!! but i lyk art too ok!! *haha!*
*Fave Drink: water (mitsu!), pop, apple juice...
--------RIGHT NOW---------
*Wearing: tank, jacket n jeans
*Hair style: let down
*Drinking: nothing! :(
*Thinking about: erm...*haha* how 2 stop my mum frm draggin mi 2 skool 4 tt dumb scholarship nite l8r...geez! i wish my stupid skool would stop sending those freaking letters of notice 2 my mum!!! coz den i can't hide anithing frm her n she gets all paranoid bout everything @ skool...
*Listening to: rainbow by ayumi *grinz* man i'm turning in2 a major fan!!!!!!! she's SO GOOD...*haha*
*Met someone new? huh? u're toking bout rite now rite? how do i do tt wen i'm doing this?
*Cleaned your room: r u crazy? i love my messy rm!!!! effie's alwaes the one cleaning up after mi...*haha!*
*Do laundry: if u're toking bout MI doing it...then it's monthly @ most!!! my mum does it every 3 days or so i tink...
*Drove a car: i wish! never got past my learners...*haha* n i'm too lazy 2 get my ass off my chair 2 go study the book ^^
---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN--------------
*Yourself: not realli...
*Santa Claus: nah! *haha!* not even wen i was small...coz there was sum song bout santa kissing the mother? i tout it was realli stupid, n i got mad @ them 4 cheating the dad...
*Tooth Fairy: i hafn't even heard of it till i dropped off most of my teeth!!!
*Destiny/Fate: yeah i guess...but it doesn't make a difference 2 mi
*Angels: *haha!* wut's gen then????
*Ghosts: nope...actualli mayb i DO tink they exist but i dun realli care coz i dun c them aniwaes rite?
*UFO: *hahahahahaha!*
----------------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
*Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: nah...
*Like anyone?: geez! how can u tell??????? *blush blush* *hahaZ!*
*Who's the shyest: mi...or effie sumtimes, n tt realli gets 2 mi...
*Who's the weirdest: *haha!* there's tons of weird pple around here! n i'm the 1st on the list!!!!!
*Who is the most dirty minded friend(s): *haha!* a few yrs ago i would say emily? but now *hahahaha!* i c tt she's juz a minor in comparison 2 the pple here!!!! they're CRAZY!!!! (n not 2 mention terribly immature...!)
*Who do you cry to?: myself!!! usually i'll cry myself 2 sleep...^^
*When you cried the most: i haf NO IDEA...i cry alot *haha* but probably wen i went back 2 s'pore...
*Who Will reply this email the fastest?: na!
*Who did you send this to who won't respond: na!
*Who sent this to: took it frm effie!!!
*Want all your friends to do this and send it back to you: nah *haha*
*Time now: 4:41pm
n tt's all folks!!! thank you 4 ur time ^^
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Sunday, December 07, 2003
-11:58:00 p.m.
there was a new gurl @ church 2dae n it REALLI REALLI reminded mi of the time wen i juz came coz we came around this time too last yr...lyk on the 8th dec i tink? aniwae, it's the 7th 2dae so yeah *haha* i guess u can tell tt there's @ least a strong resemblence in the time part ^^ din realli get 2 tok 2 her...but i heard tt she's frm china n most of the pple @ church can only speak cantonese n english rite? (ok, mayb most of them can speak french too but tt's besides the point *haha!*) aniwae, they tried toking 2 her in mandrain (it was hilarious!!! *haha!*) but luckily she could speak a lil english so tt spared all our ears frm the rotten (n totally out of tune) mandrain tt they were saying!!! *hahahahaha!*
yapz...but i oso din noe y i din go n tok 2 her, it juz felt weird...as if i was looking @ myself (but her) in the exact situation tt i was in one yr back n i din wanna go n make "mi" feel comfortable in this new surrounding...i felt lyk i was one of those pple last yr hu were all settled down w/ frenz n not very interested in a newcomer (though i dun exactly define myself as one hu is "all settled down w/ frenz" lar)...yet @ the same time though, i felt as though i could hear wut she was saying in her head n how she's feeling, coz the way the pple @ my church was treating her the same way they treated mi last yr...so mayb i was too busy transporting myself back in time n experiencing wut SHE'S probably experiencing then tt i couldn't bring myself 2 b friendly 2 her...even though i knew so well how she felt 2 b new 2 a foreign place...i guess i wanted 2 go tok 2 her, i've alwaes felt tt way 2 new pple but there's alwaes sth holding mi back...
so k, here's the deal, i wonder if tt's oso how most pple feel bout new pple, n actualli i do noe exactly wut's holding mi back...(this mite sound realli mean, but i realli feel this way sumtimes) ok, coz i tink u guyz noe tt i've been new 2 tons of places b4 rite? lyk after migrating twice n all the changin skools n churches crap, i noe how new pple feels coz i've experienced it alot...n it SUCKS, i alwaes go in2 depression after being new somewhere...no kidding! coz i'm not lyk a super bubbly n friendly person rite, so usually i takes around 1 yr plus b4 i feel a lil more adjusted 2 tt place...so i tink wen i c a new person, i want her 2 suffer the same way as i did...coz i tout it wasn't fair tt we were both presented in the same situation n yet i had 2 suffer so much b4 being accepted while she gets accepted so quickly w/ no sweat...pretty evil of mi dun u tink??? but yet i noe tt's exactly the reason y i'm not friendly 2 new gurls...
oso, i guess c-ing them alwaes remind mi of the times wen i'm having a hard time adjusting (expecially my pri 3 days) so usually i'll wait 4 sum time until they're "not-so-new" animore b4 talking 2 them? i guess i've gotta change tt soon eh? hmm...so...yes! tt shall b my new x'mas resolution!!!! ^^
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Tuesday, December 02, 2003
-12:41:00 p.m.
yoyo!!! argh...noe wut, so annoying...wen i tout we could finally get broadband, the computer goes cookoo!!!! so pissing rite? *haha* ok lar...mayb it can still b cured...i hope...*heehee* coz i set up everything yesterday rite? but it still din work!!! i called the telus pple lyk, 4 times coz none of their solutions worked...n i had 2 repeat my case everytime coz it's alwaes different pple picking up the fone!!!!!!! *grrrr...* u noe how much i hate calling up pple!!! (as in those service kinda stuff...) n it STILL doesn't work...they said mayb our computer has a worm or sth den muz use those antivirus software 2 clear it off the system...*sigh* wut i realli dun get is y
I haf 2 b the one 2 get all worked up by these stuff...2 b frank, i'm realli pissed w/ effie n my mum too...coz since we came here, i've been the one who had 2 handle all these stuff @ home...lyk everytime there's a problem w/ sth, i haf 2 call up the pple 2 solve it juz coz my mum "doesn't haf a clue bout these tings" n effie is the younger one...so in a way i haf 2 take over wut my dad's job...n it's realli tiring, it's lyk mi being responsible 4 things tt r actualli beyond mi u noe? i miss my daddy man!!!!!! :( ok lar...so now i can actualli sympathize w/ my mum a lil coz now she has 2 b lyk the 'head of the house' rite? but she's used 2 being dependent on my dad wen we were in s'pore wut...so mayb tt's y she made him change his flight 2 an earlier date (even it meant tt my dad won't b able 2 visit my grandma in h.k)....oh well...i guess it's good 2 stand in my mom's shoes once in a while too...eniwae! k i shld get going soon coz i'm typing this @ ainlay ^^
hey, speaking of wich!!! ainlay's having this realli dumb ting on thursday...it's called "touch of class" n it's compulsory 2 dress up, as in suits n dresses..................i mean, y else would i not want 2 go 4 this yr's grad besides dressing up??? it's lyk great man...i'm so screwed.....n wut's worse, my mom noes bout it frm her frenz n she's bugging mi 2 realli wear sth..............HELP MI SOMEONE!!!!!!!!!!! :(
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