rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Friday, May 23, 2003
-12:28:00 a.m.
hey pple!!!
i'm so sorry if ma last few entries haf been kinda "disturbing" of ani kind!!! *hehe!* but den again, it's ma blog 2 post wutever i feel lyk rite? *grinz!* coz i've been feeling a lil "unstable" lately so yar...i guess posting stuff on ma blog izz kinda a way 2 vent ma anger (did i tell u i cut ma hair 4 d same purpose too??? *grinz!* but not much lar, it's juz a slight trim...still, enuff 2 make ma hair feel a lil lighter!!!) *heehee!* i noe, u all muz b lyk...man, eden's gone mad in canada!!! oh well! tink wut u muz! *crazy grin!* i'm juz in a relatively good mood now (esp in comparison 2 d last few days of hell...) coz 2moro's a holiday 4 mi!!!! it's been a realli short week, we juz had victoria's day(holiday) on mon n now i'm hafing another one 2moro!! (oh wait! it's now!!! *grinz!*) so yar :)
so, i've juz been realli busy w/ ma UN debate n all...4 most of u hu dunno, we're having sth lyk d mock-UN conference tt sum of u went 4 last time...but i guess we're doing much more in-depth stuff...tiz assignment's REALLI REALLI impt, it's even more impt den d mid-term exam!!! so i guess everyone's trying 2 do their best in it!!! we haf 2 debates on wich both each country muz take a stand, n verify y n question other countries bout it...it's kinda freaky wen i tink bout it!!! d actual debate's on next tuesday n everyone muz cum in business attire n all...u noe, lyk d real ting! *grinz*! juz tt i dun haf ani.......yar well, i'll figure a way out soon! n ma country's egypt!!!!! it's cool actualli...2 realli try 2 understand stuff frm a totally different country's point of view...juz tt ma group's pretty slack, n so am i!!! now, mi n tiz other gurl's rushing lyk crazie...i wish we realli had more time...yap! so nowadays i've been doing lotza research n all bout egypt :)
n yar! i'm doing macbeth 4 english now!!! we finished lord of the flies...still, i'm not realli tt satisfied coz we din realli read deep in2 the story n i feel lyk we juz finished it n left all the details dangling...it's there but we're not reaching out 2 grasp it!!!! lyk dig up ma interest in the story n den leave it unsatisfied!!! tt's so cruel dun u tink??? i juz wish we studied it lyk how we would study lit in s'pore...lyk haf an entire year 2 go through the book thoroughly!!! seems lyk they're trying 2 fit in room 4 self-learning here...but tt'll depend on whether i haf d time(n an interest strong enuff!) 2 do tt!!! oh well...macbeth izz pretty interestin...but i noe we're gonna zoom through it all too...we still haf 2 do the crucible b4 the end of tiz semester!!! not much time man...!! *sigh* i never knew tt i haf such interest in literature...or mayb it's juz in analyzing literature?? hmm...oh well! i tink i shld go now...shall leave w/ d famous macbeth quote:
fair izz foul n foul izz fair!!!
*haha!* i haf no idea wut's d significance of tt...i'm juz trying 2 show off ma new found quote!!! *grin!*
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Tuesday, May 13, 2003
-12:18:00 p.m.
i HATE tiz world
i wish everyone would juz get their ass off ma back n leave mi alone!!!!!!!!!
wait, they r ALREADI leaving mi alone...they've always been...wut've u been tinking ass?
i need a REAL life man...no wonder i'm crazy...
well aniwae, i'm in d mist of making a new webpage so i can post sum pics there...wish mi luck in d internet arena...u noe, since i'm not gettin ani here...
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Friday, May 09, 2003
-4:46:00 p.m.
For the Lord is good; His
mercy is everlasting; and His truth endureth to all generations.
Psalms 100:5
The Lord also will be a refuge for the oppressed,
a refuge in times of trouble.
And they that know thy name will put their trust in thee: for
thou, Lord, hast not forsaken them that seek thee.
Psalms 9:9-10
heyoz! so, i found these verses on a devotion site...it's cool...i dunno, i mean, it din
STRIKE mi lyk wow or aniting but i tink it's realli good encouragement esp 2 dose hu needs it...lyk mi! ok lar, i'm not exactly "depressed" rite now? but sumhow i juz dun feel rite...lyk there's sth wrong in ma life...i understand it's far frm perfect but it's not tt bad either...lyk ok, so now i've got a few frenz (lyk wut...5?) plus sumone 2 sit wif during lunch everydae...but i still feel so empty...it's realli a wonder...lyk i've been
DREAMING of juz sumone 2 juz TOK 2 mi n notice mi n imagine tt everyting will juz go on smoothly frm there...lyk once they tok 2 mi i'll make frenz straight away...lyk
PRESTO! but no...i still feel so......sad...y??? y izz it tt man can never b satisfied? once they get wut they want, they want sth more...it's a terrible nature...
i can imagine ma mum telling mi...in response 2 tt...tt i can onlie find true satisfaction in God...i guess it's probably true. lyk wen i 1st started doing ma QT daily, i found real change in ma life...well, @ least a change in ma perspective in looking @ things...coz tt was wen i still din noe anibody yet, but w/in 2 days of doing QT, sam became ma fren...i din want 2 haf ma frenz b in d way of mi establishing a proper relationship wif Him...but now it's been @ least 2 weeks of doing QT...i'm not feeling tt revalation animore...not tt i shld i guess, i juz wanna b able 2 haf a conversation wif Him d way ma mum does...it confuses mi sumtimes, d voices in ma head...there's so many!!! i need help 2 clear it all off...i WANT 2 haf a close relationship wif Him...but most imptly, i NEED 2 haf a desire strong enuff tt can help mi...
ok, i guess i'll juz tok 2 ma mum again :)
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Thursday, May 01, 2003
-12:13:00 p.m.
Yo pple!
it's lunch again now n dunno y I'm in d library instead of having lunch wif sam�mayb coz she's nowhere 2 b found??? Probably�well aniwaes, I feel kinda bad 4 cumin 2 d library (n she'll probably not noe I'm here) n not lookin 4 her�oh well! We planned, yesterdae, 2 skip 3rd block�mi math, her phys ed�well, I mean, both our subjects r pretty boring n I've been entertainin d tout of skippin since d 1st dae of skool!!! Yar, so I was SOOOOOO excited n realli tempted 2 wen she asked mi�n we were supposed 2 go walk whyte ave? but it's lyk, I started feelin these HUGE pangs of guilt yesterdae even B4 we went�lyk ??? man�I've got a HUGE conscience man!! *haha!* so I told her tiz morning b4 1st block tt I dun feel lyk it animore�kinda lyk chickenin out u noe? But den again, I guess I dun realli care wut others tink bout mi now (even if it izz a chicken) n juz do wut I feel izz rite�so pple mite sae lyk, oh she's such a nerd n goody-2-shoes n all�but I dun feel it's bad if it's by MY principles rite? If they realli cared bout mi, they wouldn't judge mi so yar�n I'm running d risk of sam getttin mad @ mi coz of tiz (well�I CAN'T find her now!!) I noe, hopefully she'll understand�she'll juz tink of mi as a "guai kia" but�I can't help it! I mean, I wanna go 2 heaven n God 2 b proud of mi man�I figured tt if I can't even pass tiz "small" test, I mite b led on 2 doin other stuff lyk smoking coz I wanna b accepted u noe? (not lyk I tink sam smoke but it's juz an example�) so yar�I'm feelin good bout maself, though I still can't find her!! *haha!* c how lar�I'll juz ask her during eng if she's mad�oh well! Guess I shld get goin now�bye pple!
Ps, n I shall congratulate maself once again 4 tiz not-so-minor-victory *grinz!*
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