rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Monday, February 28, 2005
-8:16:00 p.m.
i miss going to a restaurant with a bunch of friends. get a grip of how much power you have, especially over the waitress.
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-8:09:00 p.m.
now. i just don't understand why i keep wanting to be somebody i am not.
i am not a canadian.
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Thursday, February 24, 2005
-1:37:00 p.m.
heyheyhey!!! yes it's been a while again ^.^ not much time to blog these days even tho it's reading week :D loads of lose stuff hanging around for me to get done and more and more just appear as i do stuff u noe...
eg. i'll be trying to go through my stats notes thinking mayb i should start studying for my midterm when i realize that i should just clear my folder out of junk paper first so that i can actually FIND the notes...so i start clearing that halfway and i find a package of student loan information and decide that i should fill that out before i forget...in the midst of filling that out, i need my alberta learning number which leads me to remember that i need to send a letter requesting my transcript so that i can apply smoothly into the school of business...so then i went into the BCommerce website in search of the address to send the transcript to and i found that i need information about signing up for cohort next year...
it's still not over yet
but i'll not go into details and bore all of u :D since quite alota stuff happened this month and i'm too lazy to write bout everything, i figured giving u a gist of my bank statement might be good :D short and precise especially since i probably spent WAYYYYY too much this month than i can ever afford...so here goes!
3rd Feb
ETS bus pass $55
The Statistic Sleuth (textbk) $120
n well...NY fries to accompany $5
8th Feb
yes i had NY fries again... $5
11th Feb
belt $10
subway :D $7
12th Feb
2 X Lindor Choc for V-day $10
eyelash curler + tweezer $10
14th Feb
dinner at this viet place w/ effie $17
17th Feb
limblifter concert w/ kristina $11
italian food $7
20th Feb
chairlift hill pass $22
snowboard full package rental $20
21st Feb
karaoke $17
22nd Feb
class 7 knowledge test $15
driver's license $67
and that's for
SO FAR...i dun even wanna calculate the total, so screwed *haha* i didn't get the stuff that i really want like
a cat $125 +++ (well we have to get food, litterbox etc. too rite?)
a drumset $1000 +++ (i'm not exactly sure of the price)
a new phone $200 +++ (i haf to sign up for a plan with fido...for at least 30 bucks/mth)
a mini i-pod $300 +++ (but well i'm not gonna get this if effie wants one, coz then i'll let her have it)
but yes! i FINALLY did get my driver's license!!! passed the tests and now it's just...a matter of learning
how to drive *haha*
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Sunday, February 13, 2005
-3:33:00 p.m.
wednesday2 houses
3 hours of tv
2 hours of crapping online
1 super cute kitten
a super duper nice church "uncle" *HAHA!*
and
a long time no see korean fren :D
oh yes. and it was
chinese new year. (^.^)
in a way i tink i've been spared the agony of being homesick during CNY as most of my frenz are, coz we never had relatives 2 spend it w/ in the first place :) i'm not pitying myself tho, juz tinking how i would have never tout of this as a blessing in disguise *hehe* 2 ang-baos in total this year, cooped one out of uncle alan yesterday :D it's all good.
10 minutes till i leave for work. the butterflies in my stomach are starting 2 flutter around again...gonna be a busy night, i can feel it! couples will be going out on the weekend 2 celebrate a be-earlied v-day...so yup! good luck 2 me!
ps. and may they all not ask me any questions about the menu...
coming up next:
VALENTINE'S DAY!!! |
Monday, February 07, 2005
-4:46:00 p.m.
HARLOW!!! ok it's truly been a while since i've blogged *haha* it'll be amazing if anyone actualli reads this coz i bet u all gave up on my blog already! :D but anyways, 1st things 1st:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLAREY!!!!
i miss u loads man...miss talking 2 u on the phone *whines* but i'm glad i got u in the morning though!!! *heehee* even if i wasted the chance of waking u up with the phone :D (yes that was my true purpose!!! *haha!* bet u figured out already ^.^)
then oh yes, i was over @ toronto the past week, left on friday the week before and came back wednesday night last week coz i was attending my grandpa's funeral over there...mm...my mum actualli left way earlier when she heard that he was realli ill, then she was there when he died...i'm really glad that she got 2 see him one last time :) my uncle, my 4 lil cousins, my dad and i flew over after that 2 attend the funeral...n it was actualli an eyeopener 4 me! *haha* felt as tho i've learnt alot this trip *lol* i noe it's weird 2 say it's educational but it is! coz 4 one, it's my first funeral...i mean, i tink i've been 2 one before but i was like, 4? i dunno, around there...n i can't remember much bout that one except i was forcing myself 2 cry *LOL!* yeah, and i din cry this time either *haha* partly coz i'm not close 2 my grandpa...but my cousins over @ toronto were saying that he's realli nice 2 them so i guess he is! *haha* i mean, everytime he came over 2 singapore b4, he never realli talked 2 me and effie...mayb our family is just realli insignificant in the extended family *haha* but still, i remember my grandpa as being realli generous, and he loved 2 eat and he loved 2 swim and he was actualli a pretty suai grandpa! :P as in, he's pretty good looking 4 an old guy *heehee* but i guess that's about all i can remember about him...
i dunno, going over there realli made me wish that i grew up with my relatives...or just somewhere where i had my extended family with me...i mean now, my relatives r juz so distant 2 me...it's weird how we're so related and yet i know nothing about them :( i dunno how 2 express this feeling in english...but in jap, it's like, ほんとにたいへんです...like my aunties and uncles were actulli saying 2 me, i dunno much about u but since u like studying and reading so much, u shld study things like literature and history, u noe, art courses and stuff since u dunno what 2 do in uni...and i'm juz like thinking, what are u talking about? since when did i like studying and reading? i never did since young...and they probably just built an impression of me coz my results have always been pretty decent and assume i'm a nerd or sth...ok i guess i can't blame anyone bout that, but i realli wish i grew up on toronto or hong kong where there's older pple hu've watched me grow up from young and i have cousins and frenz that i've played with since young, my cousins over there are so close and i long so much 4 that *haha* actualli i've been longing 4 that since i came here and seeing close cici, manda and kristi are *heehee*
still, meeting my cousins is pretty cool, except they're all pretty much older now, i'm the 2nd youngest of the older lot of the cousins *haha* effie's the youngest obviously! but i actualli didn't get 2 talk 2 them alot, especially kathleen and calvin, coz i mean, it's only like the 2nd time i've met them rite? talked 2 christina and alfred alot more, partly coz i'm originally closer 2 them, like i've seen them alot more coz the last few times when i came over 2 canada i'm always hanging out with them so yeah...they're cool :) plus, alfred's the same age as me and christina's a few years older so i guess the age gap's smaller in comparison! but yeah, the four of them are like, my idea of CBCs since i came 2 canada in sec 1 2 visit man...they're the kind of canadian chinese that i've always wanted 2 b...they're juz different from the ones here in edmonton somehow *haha* here's juz like, total FOBness *lol*and oh man, kathleen is SO. GORGEOUS. it's so hard 2 believe tt we're related...*haha* coz she's like, so pretty and she has the best figure AND she's smart (she's a lawyer, i tink she just graduated or sth) and she's realli nice too! realli, i was so stunned @ first *haha* and calvin's cute too, baby face!!! (well ok, aunt ella's realli pretty so it makes sense!) but he's supposedly realli kiddish *haha* i dunno, he and alfred's like, the ultimate crappiness together *haha* they're awesome, i juz wish i knew them better...well...mayb i can go over 2 toronto more often 2 visit now that i'm living in edmonton...except they've all moved away too *haha* they juz came back 4 the funeral as well...kathleen's living in downtown toronto, calvin's in oakville, christina's in vancouver and alfred's in hamilton -_-" so wut's the point of going down 2 mississauga then? oh wells...hu noes, mayb there's still chance of me getting 2 know them better *haha*
anws, yeah, after the funeral b4 i left, christina and alfred brought me over 2 macmaster 2 check out their campus...IT'S SO PRETTY!!! ok, i've heard that western ontario's even better but macmaster's not bad! they've loads of trees and stuff *haha* except alfred's dorm kinda stinks *lol* as in, literally stink stink *haha* then what else...oh yes! i actualli managed 2 go shopping 4 a couple of hours as well! in vauhan mills or sth, they're supposedly realli huge, like if u took away all the crappy stuff in WEM, they're supposed 2 b even bigger than WEM! plus, it's a new mall! man i got this coat from tristan & america that was originally $225 for $10 and a GUESS jacket that was $158 for $24!!!!!! is that cool or is that cool *haha* except i din even have 2 pay 4 that, coz my aunties were paying 4 me :D *heehee* i guess i dun mind pampered once in a while!!! *grinz* that was juz awesome *heehee* and christina's sucha great shopping partner!!! man next time i go shopping in toronto, i've GOT 2 ask her 2 bring me out :D
wow i realized that this is long *haha* but i've actualli got more stuff 2 say...*lol!* went 4 kristi and jennifer's party on friday, about a day after i came back :D it was fun man!!! *haha* yeah it was super great @ 1st, then i heard some not so nice stuff wich kinda killed my mood 4 a period of time, but then it became ok again later coz :D then me and effie stayed over @ her house coz we din want our dad 2 come fetch up so late...and so did david, jonathan and jennifer *haha* kristi, david, jonathan and me were like, playing bridge the whole night man! i din even notice it was the next morning coz we juz kept playing and playing *haha* but nobody won in the end coz we broke even *haha* then ended up sleeping @ 6am coz we couldn't stand it, actualli no la, we made a bad choice of watching anime when we're so tired *haha* so then we slept...then kristi, david and jon woke up @ 7 coz effie had 2 go 2 work so she drove them all out 2 WEM...i slept till 12 but i was still SO exhausted *haha* lessons were ok tho, coz i told them i din get 2 practice coz i was over in toronto *heehee*
oh man...i tink i've been too distracted and daydreaming too much lately tt i hafn't made any effort 2 improve on my social life in skool o.o *oops* i mean, i juz dun realli care that much animore 2 go and initiate talking 2 pple (i mean, since nobody ever initiates talking 2 me rite? it's all my responsibility 2 get 2 know them) so yeah...i mean, ok...the usual, i talk 2 pple in my classes and that's about it...i realli shld go join sth 2 get some stuff going outside classes *haha* but there isn't much skool spirit around here...uni's juz a place that pple come 2 take courses...that's it...so i'm confused...how did all these other pple get so tight?
anws ok la, this is way too long...i'm honoured if u actualli read all of this! *haha* thnx 4 bearing w/ me man!!!! i'll tty guyz later!!!
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