rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Thursday, February 05, 2004
-4:44:00 p.m.
i finally took the music off my blog..*heehee* sorry 2 all those pple i've irritated!!!
was feeling a lil crappy 2dae...wich is kinda opposite 2 how happy i was yesterday esp wen i was cuming home! mayb coz the weather was so much nicer yesterday (*haha* yeah rite) but i was juz feelin all nice n positive bout tings, lyk there were birds chirping n the sky was so nice n blue w/ all the cute lil white fluffy clouds...but 2dae i walked all the way home starin @ my shoes n the brown snow on the ground :(
mayb it's coz our english group were fightin w/ another group over a question...lyk each group were supposed 2 choose 1 question 2 do n present, n there were only 6 questions while there was 7 groups...den so happens tt our group n this other group wanted the same question, so mrs ourdeva wanted one group 2 "disgroup" n join other groups while the other keeps the question...obviously we won, tt's y i'm feeling so lousy...*haha* i would've felt so much better if
we disgrouped instead...but yeah, we were kinda fightin w/ them coz they were quite persistent bout it too...so in the end they decided 2 draw lots n we got it...n now i'm feelin so bad!!! *sigh* i hope we din piss them off or anything...one of the girls in tt group's in my (new) math class n i was plannin 2 tok 2 her!!!! oh well...i tink she's nice enuff...she was nice 2 mi last time @ least...
n i hafn't toked 2 angus n steven 4 ages!!!!! juz coz we're not in the same classes anymore n i dun c them outside classes...*sigh* oh yeah, my new classes sux too...*haha* tt's y i'm tryin 2 tok 2 tt gurl n the gurl sitting behind mi in math! but they're pretty good frenz w/ each other so it'll b weird if i juz lyk, butt in n start joinin in their conversations! oh well...i'll juz c how it goes...*haha* i haf this feeling lyk wen i was back in scona where everyone juz ignores mi n do their own stuff, coz tt's how it realli is if u dun take the initiative! tough luck man...*haha* esp when they're not all that enthusiatic bout being frenz w/ u...*geez* ok! c wen i'm feelin crappy, this izz wut happens: i get all pathetic n self-pityin again!!! man when will i ever learn??? there's no such ting as...erm, free-lunch? (is tt how u say it? *haha*)
anyway! my dad's in toronto now...coz i tink he's helping out w/ my grandparents n all (i tink my grandpa has cancer or sth...i'm not realli sure) so mayb i'm miss9 him tt's y...he's lyk so spas man! he started callin himself "kam" since he came here *haha* coz his name's "kam man" so he decided since he's in a western country, he'll adopt a more western name...right....*hahahahahaha* anyway, so now my dad's kam...
[phone rings]
mi : hello?
person: hi, is kam there?
mi : huh????
person: k.a.m, can i tok 2 kam?
[mi pauses n tinks]
mi : Ohhhhh,
KAM! ok sure...
yeah,
sure i'm used 2 it...*haha*
oh yeah...hmm, i juz read mutiara's blog...been follow9 it realli closely these days! *haha* coz i realli wanna noe how she's doing over there...n she doesn't sound too happy in her last entry...it kinda (or shld i say, REALLI) reminded mi of the time wen i 1st came here...esp tt time b4 i started skool...coz i only started skool 2 mths after i came here, n i was lyk, SO. LONELY. period. nothing could make mi feel better! (mayb except jon-jon n baby!) i was stuck in the house not being able 2 go out coz there's no transport n it's freezing cold, i had no frenz, i couldn't tok 2 my frenz in s'pore coz of the time difference, i couldn't go online too much coz my uncle would scold mi 4 hoggin the phone line...i had no life man *haha* n i couldn't wait 4 skool 2 start so i could hurry up make sum frenz n live a normal life again...
den skool started n i couldn't wait 4 the holidays 2 cum! *haha* but yeah, sumtimes i juz feel lyk a loser u noe? i c how everyone else (as in pple hu went overseas 2 study too) seems 2 b adapting so well in their new skools w/ all their new frenz, they say as though making new frenz iz SUCH an easy ting 2 do...well tt's wut I tout too, b4 i came here...but am i juz so...pathetic? yeah well...i guess it's juz a phrase in my life where i haf 2 learn stuff...but i trust tt God did place mi in sucha situation 2 make mi stronger :)
n as 4 tiara, well...i dun realli noe wut 2 say 2 u even though i realli realli noe how u're feeling, coz well, i tink nothing i say will realli help...i mean, judgin frm my experience lar...but i hope u won't get discouraged by mi! *haha* i juz wanted 2 let u noe tt i realli emphatize(?) w/ u *haha* but everybody's different n my situation's different frm urs...plus, u're a much more stronger n happier person than mi so i'm sure u can do it! ^^ n i tink the best ting is juz 2 not 2 dwell on it...do sumthing u realli lyk 2 get ur mind off it!!! the ting tt always comforts mi the most though, is remembering tt God is always here w/ mi :) coz He's been through sufferings too n He noes how it feels...ok? U R
LOVED dear!!! ^^
*haha* ok lar! i realli shld go liao...hafn't blogged 4 so long but this entry's kinda long enuff...*haha* so cya!
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