rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Wednesday, February 25, 2004
-4:38:00 p.m.
^^ i'm feeling better 2dae! *haha* told u i'll snap outta it! ok but tt's coz i get a super long weekend *haha* we haf teacher's convention 2moro n d day after!!! so it's a 4 day weekend *WOOHOOOOO!!!* eniwae, juz wanna type this out 4 u guyz 2 read...it helped mi alot yesterday...i dunno, it's realli long but try 2 read thru it kz? ^^ *haha* ok lar, i haf a feeling it's actualli more 4 myself!! *haha* juz so tt next time i can read back on my posts n remember this...or even wen i'm having "relapses" n stuff, i can remind myself *heez* but it's taken frm a realli good book too so...^^ CHEERS!
Avoidance-of-Responsibility
...One of the men lying there had been sick for thirty-eight years. When Jesus saw him and knew how long he had been ill, He asked him, "Would you like to get well?" "I can't," the sick man said, "for i have no one to help me into the pool at the movement of the water..." Jesus told him, "Stand up, roll up your sleeping mat and go on home!" Instantly, the man was healed!
- John 5:5-9
Actualli we know very little about this poor man, n perhaps our use of him as an example is unfair. however, he seems 2 have been assignin his plight 2 the unwillingness of others 2 help him. he also seems 2 have lost hope. like many pple hu do not want 2 assume responsibility 4 their lives, he talks only about what others r not doin 4 him. apparently he has not given much thought 2 how he might help himself. he is so absorbed in the limitations of his condition tt he does not explore the creative possiblities of the situation.
and so Jesus asks the man a question tt moves him 2 probe his own inner attitudes: "Would u realli like 2 get well?" Some pple, as we know, make a vocation of being sick, either physically or emotionally. it is the easiest, if not the only way 4 them 2 relate 2 others: by being needy. sumtimes sickness provides an excuse 4 not trying......Illness is passive. Involvement is active. they choose passivity rather than activity in life.
there r many other rationalizations, besides the excuse of sickness, wich r used 2 justify the avoidance-of-responsibility life principle. sumtimes we let our fears or our self-inflicted judgments of inferiority shield us frm taking the risks n facing the challenges of a full life. we substitute "i can't" 4 "i won't even try".
when one sets out 2 look 4 avenues of escape, the possibilities r infinite. "This is the way i am!" some pple blame their life condition on their genes. others claim tt their level of education is responsible 4 their life's outcome. still others assign their fixed state 2 ethnic background or lack of connections. a large group of pple "blame it on the stars." this tendency 2 use astrology as a way out of personal responsibility is an old one: a tried n true rationalization.
"Men at some time are masters of their fate. The fault, Dear Brutus, is not in our stars, But in ourselves..." Julius Caesar (1, ii, 134)
...so u n i must look into ourselves at the deepest level, the point at which few pple, if any, r ever permitted 2 know us. what do we REALLY want frm life? what do we REALLY think would make us happy? u n i r now practicing a life principle, which may not b obvious frm a surface view. someday it will amount 2 a life wager. in the end everyone gambles his or her life on sth, or someone, as the way 2 happiness...
- taken frm Unconditional Love by John Powell, S.J. |
