rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Wednesday, May 05, 2004
-6:36:00 p.m.
*heehee* ok i shldn't b blogging coz i've got tons of hw 2 do ^^ n i juz got "offline" frm msn rite? *haha!* [dun kill mi!!!] aiyah...but den, i wanna update a lil mah! *haha* so long alreadi...weekly updates r so boring!!!!! so yeah!
christy's birthday 2dae!!!!!! i got her a hamster n we called her oreO!!!!! cute cute??? ^^ *grinz* she's 2 weeks old n so small n cute!!!!!! *AWwwww!!!* but den kinda fierce sia! *haha* yesterday she bit effie, n 2dae she bit patricia!!! got blood summore leh!!! but i guess she's scared lar...coz lyk suddenly so many tings happening rite? *heehee* i tink she was actualli pretty settled in my house yesterday (coz i bought her yesterday w/ carol rite? den oreo stayed over @ my house 4 a nite!) n this morning she was running in tt spinning ting!!!! (ahh i dunno wut it's called...*haha!*) so cute!!! i hope she'll b happily settled @ christy's house! n tt her uncle won't make her put oreo in the garage!! *cross fingers!* heehee! but most of all, i hope christy lyks her!!! ^^ *haha* everybody put so much emphasis on oreo den 4get tt
christy's supposed 2 b the real "star" 2dae rite? *LoL* [lyk our card huh carol????]
hmm wut else? i dunno...dunno y i'm realli happy nowadays *haha!* is it weird 2 c mi so chirpy? *lol!* i tink it's coz of God ^^ *haha!* ok yeah i'm back 2 Him again! must give Him all the glory leh!!! ^^ dunno, it's more of an inner peace n happiness u noe? n i'm kinda satisfied w/ everything i haf presently...ok @ 1st i dunno if it's coz i'm starting 2 haf more frenz tt's y i'm happier or wut...coz i put so much emphasis on frenz rite? or @ least i used 2!!! den now i kinda haf a bit more frenz so mayb tt's y i'm happier rite?
but den i dun tink so...coz, after so long...lyk i was "frenless" 4 about a year since i came here (ok i wasn't exactly frenless, i juz din haf close frenz), i sort of learnt alota tings...lyk frenship isn't a dependable safety net u can fall back on...i mean, u could always still b frenz, but u haf 2 put ur security in sth else tt's REALLY lasting n true...i mean, if u put ur security in frenship, wut happens wen u're lyk mi? i couldn't possibly rely on my s'porean frenz 4ever rite? plus, time n distance dilutes frenships...realli, dun try tellin mi it doesn't coz it does...even though we do haf a special place in each other's lives, but tt doesn't mean they can b there thruout all the difficulties of ur life...coz they haf their own lives too n we haf 2 understand tt...
so den u'll tink i could continue 2 haf my security wen i make new frenz here rite? i could, if i were more competent *haha!* but i'm not, i take more than a year 2 get accustomed 2 this place...n even so, i'm not THAT comfortable w/ everything ard...so wut can i do since i lost my security? i was devastated, i was depressed, i wish i were dead, my life was so...meaningless u noe? till i found my security back in Him...i drifted in n out b4, lyk i knew He was the only one hu's 4ever but i fell back soon enuff...but now i'm trying my best not 2, 2 put ur trust n all ur effort in2 sth tt is actualli worthy n fruitful, not sth tt is empty tt u'll never b satisfied...i tink tt's wut makes my life realli worth living ^^ God is the answer 2 everything...all u haf 2 do is ask n b willing...pEaCe~
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