Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours

eden
psalms 27:4
u of a

-5:01:00 p.m.

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-2:18:00 p.m.

suddenly started reminising(?) my ij days again *heehee* i guess it's coz i was lookin @ sum pple in class n they were so buddybuddy w/ each other it reminded mi of us last time ^.^ anws, had an urge 2 put down all the teachers n subjects i had in ij *lol* so it's gonna b a pretty long list i tink!!!!

1. eng - lee yok teng*cynthia ng*mrs alex*meg low
2. chinese - lao shiX3*lol* i still dunno her last name!!!! was it shi?
3. math - sec 1???*teo sth sth *lol*
4. e.math - mr tay X2
5. a.math - mr tayX2
6. science - ismi*tan aye leng
7. phys tan - bee layX2
8. chem - selvamX2
9. bio - ismiX2
10. history - 4got mrs yip or sth...cant remember her *lol*
11. social - ??? gail (did gail teach us both years??? oh man!!!)
12. geog - lee yok tengX3
13. art - LOLOLOLOL! tayboonengX2?*yitkeeX2? i dun remember how many yrs they each taught!!!! how can?!?!?!?!?! *horror!!!*
14. PE - kaliah or sth lyk tt*cheongwaiyin or sthX3?? she kept gettin pregnant though!!! *lol*
15. CME - mr sth...lee? tt guy everyone called a pervert *lol*kaliah?*i noe meg low taught us the last yr...or was it joeteo???

oh man!!!! this is crazy!!! 2 b frank, i realli hafn't tout bout ij for a loooooooooooong time coz it'll only make mi miss everything more n lyk, think bout how sucky this place is in comparison...so not 2 mention the teachers n all! *lol* but everytime i tink of ij...i tink of aep...or 4/1 @ least...n everytime i tink of aep, i tink of u guyz, my project...n yitkee!!!! *lol* n EVERYTIME i tink of yitkee (yicky!), i start laughing *haha!* seriously!!! i dun even noe y but it's juz funny *haha* yeah well...he's actualli a pretty cool guy 4 a teacher even if i hate 2 admit! even though he could get all jerky sumtimes but i can hardly remember those in detail!!! but i remember all the times wen we tortured him *LOL* n the times wen he stayed w/ us till late as we did our projects n the countless times wen he drove us 2 the mrt station even wen we kept complaining bout the smell of his car n how he doesn't do his own laundry *HAHAHAHAHAHAHA* it was fun :) y did everything seem so tough n stressful then wen it was actualli so much FUN?

so hey u guyz now...[esp those in JCs!!!] cherish these moments that u have in skool now even if it's hard coz u're studying lyk crazy...coz i mean, u're doing all this 2gether w/ ur frenz!!! there's so much other tings tt u have in skool besides the studying n stress...they're the ones that keep u sane during these times, so enjoy them while u can :) i had those moments once...they dun last n i dun tink i'll ever have them again...missuall...

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-11:34:00 a.m.

i'm feeling weird...ventured 2 sum blogs of pple i dun realli noe AGAIN n read all bout their lives AGAIN *lol* i realli shld stop doing tt, so nosy 4 wut?!!! it's not lyk it's my business *heehee* but i juz can't help it...

aniwaes! I LOVE MY NEW TURK N MY NEW JACKET!!!!!!! they're so pretty ^.^ now all i lack r new mittens, new scarves n sumore more new jackets! *LOL!* did i mention tt i started snowing last saturday??? on monday i was wearing my turk n jacket n gloves, n i was walking w/ carly den it started snowing lyk crazy...but i felt so great!!!! *LOL* juz coz it's so winterish n i felt so properly dressed 4 the occasion *hahahahahahahhaa!* my turk has this lil ball of wool on top n i felt lyk a snowman *LOL* but aniwaes!!!!

oh man...*heehee* i'm happy coz i lyk snow rite? n it snowed non-stop 4 sum time so there's a couple cm of snow now!!! only problem is, it's not tt cold so all the snow on the pavements melts n became ice? now everyone's getting wiped out...*haha!* esp in campus...oh man it's bad!!!! i HAVE 2 walk outside coz there's no indoor way rite? so iceiceice all the way n i clench my fist hoping i won't fall *heehee*

ok back 2 classes now......oh yeah, n tim horton's hot choc's the best in winter *haha!*

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-5:15:00 p.m.

はじめまして。わたしのなまえはeden です！どうぞよろしく。わたしはアルバタだいがくのいちねんせいです。せんこはけいざいがくです。わたしはsingaporeからきました。こちらわたしのともだちです。すみすさんじゃないです。すずきさんです。これはにほんごでなんといいますか。つくえのしたにいぬがいますよ。いぬはしずかないぬですね。あのたてものわだれのうちですか。

(harlow! my name is eden! i'm a freshman in UA. i am majoring in economics. i'm from singapore. this is my friend. he is not Smith. he is Suzuki. what do you call this in japanese? there is a dog under the table. it's a quiet dog yeah? who lives in that building? )

n this is wut i've learnt in jap after a month *lol*

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-4:16:00 p.m.

autumn rox my sox!!!!

doesn't tt look so pretty??? ^.^ it's lyk, wen u walk down the roads, u almost feel lyk u're in a fairytale or sth *lol* but now it doesn't look lyk tt animore (took it quite a while ago!!! *haha!*)...this sight only lasts 4 2 weeks @ most...so tt's y it's super cherishable!!! only 2 weeks in 56 weeks eh!!!! *grinz* the leaves haf almost all fallen now...the trees look so bare, so dead :( but tt's ok!!!!! ^.^ the beginning of winter is always a different kind of pretty so i'm anticipating tt!!!! *grinz* dunno, i've become sucha nature freak since i came here!!! *haha!* well...i guess i juz learnt 2 appreciate God's creation a lot more juz coz...it's too amazing!!! ^.^

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-11:33:00 p.m.

HIHI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hey long time no c again! ^.^ man it's been the most happenin weekend EVER! *lol* esp w/ effie's birthday on fri n it being thanxgiving weekend! totally cool *grinz* oh speaking of birthdays, i better say this b4 i get...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EDWINA!!!

ur birthday's on wednesday aye? well...happy be-earlied then ^.^ mite not b blogging till then so i'll juz say it 1st!!! :) 18 alreadi ah!!! *haha!*

ok so gettin back on track!!! *lol* yes last friday was my darlin sister's long-awaited birthday!!!!! ^.^ turned out 2 b one of the best days i've ever had in my life too!!!! i rarely had sucha great time tt i'll feel lyk i'm @ the top of the world but tt definitely was one of them! (of coz, the other one was the baptismal party tt we had last easter wich was the craziest ting ever *lol!*) but yeah! all the high skool pple had PD day on her birthday so they had the day off, but i had skool still coz uni's not exactly considered a public skool -_-" tt din matter though coz it was in the morning aniwaes! so after skool, i rushed off 2 southgate 2 look 4 effie so we could go laser 2gether (i even had 2 ditch carly 2 look 4 effie ok!!! she better appreciate this!!! *lol!*) *heehee* aniwaes! there we met manda, cici, rainbow, david, brian, jennifer, joanathan n joel n sang karaoke for over 3 hrs *SOOOOO SUPER FUN!!!!* ^.^ of coz though...most of them sang songs tt we din noe coz we're not tt in2 canto pop *heehee* but we had our share still! i'm so glad we haf the few miriam n twins' cds tt we haf man...so @ least there were sum songs we could sing *LOL!* n i tink i'm much better now @ singin k coz last time wen i went w/ christy n all, i din dare 2 sing as much rite? but now i'm ok *haha!* so tt was freakin cool ^.^ n jonathan's realli got a pretty good voice now tt i tink bout it *haha!* n the more i look @ him, the more he reminds mi of zaizai man!!! *lol!* but yeah! the funniest ting was the last few songs *haha!* coz mi n manda started choosing jap songs even though we din noe how 2 sing them! i mean, i tout they'll have @ least the background singers but there wasn't! so we ended up only singin all the english words in the jap songs *LOL!* super crappy lor!!! ^.^ but so fun *heehee* i tink i've said tt lyk, a thousand times alreadi but it was!!!! *haha!*

yeap! den after getting our voices all hourse n everything we headed 2 our house! brian (my gosh i juz typed "brain" instead AGAIN!) n my dad fetched us there n my mum cooked ^.^ it's kinda lyk the 1st time so many pple's been 2 our hse all @ one go!!! actualli of all of them...i tink @ most only david n clara's ever been 2 our hse...each ONCE *lol* so it was a major party man...oh yeah! n i 4got 2 mention, michele n clara came then too so there was...err...12 of us altogether? *heehee* den we ate, watched tv, played "hong lok kei" (wich is kinda lyk chinese billard?) n toked alot *haha!* ok we kinda broke off in2 groups ourselves n juz did wutever we feel lyk doing...n i find tt there's actualli realli alot more stuff 2 do @ home then 2 go out!!! so we shld juz do tt next time...crash sumone's place!!!!! ^.^ sweet!!! so it was realli cool, had tons of laughs as effie opens her presents n everything :) aww i wish i took pix but i 4got!!! damn!!! nvm la...next time hope i'll remember! *haha!* den they left bout 11:30 i tink...my dad brought some of them back n i went w/ them...by the time we came home, it was past midnite :) birthday over!!! *haha!*

den yeah tt was the funfunfun day i had!!! sat was cool too but pretty normal, coz i had drums, piano n work as usual ^.^ din haf much difference except the fact tt i haf a new drum teacher! cody moved 2 vancouver so yeah...n i 4got my new teacher's name! *lol* but he's realli cool n he made mi feel proud of myself n my drumming skills *haha!* yeah tt's y he's cool aye? *lol* no la! he taught mi alota drum set stuff man!!!! so happenin!!!! den 4 piano tom was teaching mi improvisation too so i was realli happy after my lessons ^.^ actualli i'm always happy after my lessons no matter how tired i was b4 tt!!! but after i went 2 work, wah beng man!!! *haha!* so tiring!! n i'm always so stressed out during work n i'm lyk, quiet n everything...dun talk 2 the other pple @ work much except 2 ask them bout stuff...*sigh* tt's not good!!! :( n i get leg cramps after work @ nite while i sleep coz i'm too tired/stressed man!!! must change must change *haha!*

still work 2dae was SO cool! coz i worked alone n i was so happy w/ myself coz i could handle it!!! ^.^ even though i was a lil scared of mandy working in the kitchen but it's all good :) even uncle stephan said i'm getting better!!!! mayb it's coz i was tryin 2 do my best coz mandy was in there *lol!* can't give her a chance 2 critisize mi man!!! *haha!* but yeah! i tink i did pretty alrite...n i got ALOT OF TIPS!!!!!!!!! *HUGE GRINZ* coz even though there weren't tt many tables, the pple hu were there ordered huge amounts of stuff n they were realli nice ^.^ so tt makes mi feel realli good bout myself *heehee* n the amount of tips i got is enuff 2 cover 4 the new jacket mi n effie bought @ west ed 2dae! ^.^ i'm so happy! *heehee* man God realli blessed mi!!! u noe, i tithed 2dae n He immediately gave mi back wut i gave Him plus so much more than i could even imagine!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH FATHER!!!!! :) i realli shld count my blessings n thank Him 4 them...esp now tt it's thanxgiving!!! so thanx again! ^.^ anihows, i shld get going now...getting late n my feet's all sore frm work!!! so i'll cya guyz n good luck 4 ur As alrite?? LOVE YA ALL!!!

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-3:16:00 p.m.

ok sorry bout tt outburst juz now!!! i'm alrite now...math n stats juz kills mi tt's all :) i got a 7.5 4 on my math quiz n the class average was lyk, 9.5...upon 10 mind u!!! i would've dropped math if the deadline 4 droppin classes wasn't over...but nvm, かんばてeden!!! i can survive the rest of this semester...it's juz tt i feel so bad if i realli were 2 switch courses coz den i'm lyk, giving up rite? i feel lyk i'm lettin my dad down...as if i'm telling both myself n him 2 face the fact tt i realli am not tt good in math...ok i mean, i tout i was pretty ok, if not good (thickskin a bit la!!! ^.^)...but after cuming 2 uni, i guess i realli am not...den again oh wellz...2moro's worries shall b left 2 b worried about 2moro *lol* wth! *haha!*

hmm oh yeah!! heard lister hall had a firedrill @ 6am this morning!!! *lol* it's pretty funny 2 tink bout it but i feel sorry 4 the pple living there!!! i got 2 english this morning n sam was lyk, drooping dead *lol* they had 2 get up in the middle of their sleep 4 this stupid firedrill n stand outside 4degrees plus wind chill in their pyjamas *haha!* but i mean, y put a firedrill @ 6 on a MONDAY morning??? everybody probably slept late the nite b4 frm drinkin or doing last min work rite? *heehee* poor them! no wonder they cant wait 2 go back during thanksgiving!!! ^.^

got a lota random thoughts frm not bloggin too much these days *heehee* our worship team lead our 1st worship yesterday! it was not bad i tink...n i was singing the songs w/ them 4 the 1st time considering i've never gone 4 the practices coz of work!!! i feel so bad...i wanna practice w/ them too but yeah...next time i hope!!! effie played guitar too 4 the 1st time in public!!!! *YAY!!!* she's good ^.^ getting better n better!!! n she got a black guitar 4 her birthday frm my parents!!! *heehee* it's damn cool! shld take a pic of it sumday 2 show it 2 u guyz *grinz* yeah so it was definately an experience 4 all of us...i hope i can do worship more 4 God next time n realli focus on leading the congregation 4 Him, coz i dun wanna do worship 4 the wrong reason u noe? :)

alritey, i shld get going now...gonna study n do hw w/ karin if i can find her! man, i hafta bring the wrong phone 2dae when i need 2 get her...i'm sucha klutz! *heehee* oh wellz...i could always call effie n ask her 4 the number coz she has the rite phone *lol* so complicated!!! anihows, i'll cya guyz l8r! じゃあ、また！

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-11:29:00 a.m.

i hate being surrounded by a sea of pple n yet feel so totally alone...there's no individuality, no i dun even feel visible...i'm juz another being here...wut am i doing??? this is too routine-ish man...walkin ard campus, rushing frm classes 2 classes, bumping in2 pple, phonin up pple 2 meet them 4 lunch lyk i cant stand 2 b alone, surface talk...wut happened 2 mi?

on another note, had a pretty nice talk w/ him yesterday though...it was short but it was nice, sort of resembles the deeper kind of conversation tt i used 2 haf w/ pple...ok so it was not quite there but yeah :) i'm so glad he understood wut i meant ^.^ i realli miss those...i miss pple 2 hold deep conversations w/...n i'm tired of merely talking 2 pple about lecture notes, assignments n due dates...this is too dry...ok so mayb tt's coz i hafn't even known them 4 a month but still!! this sux...if this is wut university is about, i dun wanna b here...i mean, i hardly get 1/2 the stuff in my classes!!! i feel lyk a dumbass n i haf no frenz...everybody hates mi. woohoo. self-pity.

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-5:20:00 p.m.

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
but no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desparate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and their stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like [x2]
Welcome to my life [x3]

Welcome To My Life - Simple Plan

*heehee* it's not that bad ^.^ i juz lyk the song *lol*

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