rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Saturday, June 25, 2005
-11:07:00 a.m.
:D was out at a church camp the past couple of days...dou wan dak gei hoi sum lah ^.^ *haha* even though it was mainly enoch pple and only 5 galilee pple and i didn't really get to know them well...the workshops and sermons were great!
I'M A 1.5 GENERATION!!!!wahahahahaha i'm just really happy to know that :D coz it cleared up alot of stuff about my identity LOL! oh man, but enoch pple are so fobby...i felt so white O.O haha! so many pple thought i was a cbc...heehee i guess i'm kinda happy about that! :D had a really fun time with hobo too, fooling around and being corny! it was cool coz...i felt so much like myself when i'm with him :D like, singapore me again!!! weeeeeeeeeeeeee *haha*
yesterday fellowship was interesting ^.^ even though i suck at ultimate frisbee big time...and i never once made a complete pass O.O it's either i couldn't catch it or i couldn't pass it T.T *haha* but the pple were so nice...like they still passed to me even though they know i'm gonna screw it up *LOL!* so it kinda broke the ice for me and i was talking quite alot during dinner :D
oh i just realized that u guyz might not know what i'm talking about...i recently joined galilee fellowship after MIAing frm fellowships for a year :D heehee coz i couldn't make up my mind whether to join TYF or galilee...but i finally decided on galilee and i'm trying to get involved and stuff ^.^ it's nice getting to know some new pple :D
so anyways, gonna be watching longest yard in a bit :D 3rd movie in 3 days O.O i'm gonna be so broke...stupid. i wish there wasn't so many good stuff coming up!!! it's using up all my hardearned $$$!!!!! T.T how how how??? looks like i'm never gonna be able to reach my 1.5 grand target for my trip @.@ heehee.
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Saturday, June 18, 2005
-10:42:00 a.m.
i really really really shld stop reading blogs and stuff like that. i don't understand why reading about pple's lives shld make me feel incompetent...i don't have to compare with them, they have their lives to live and i have mine. even if our situations were really similar and they have it so much better off than me now. i guess ultimately it boils down to me feeling like a loser (again) coz i couldn't do it and they can...so it's not a problem caused by the situation, it's the person's problem...and that's me.
i just don't wanna admit to it.
i don't wanna give up. i'm jealous. i hate myself. i hate my personality.
i wish i could be like those kinda pple, always so happy, always so cheerful...bringing a smile to everyone's face coz they're never seem to have any problems. they probably do too, but it doesn't get to them. somehow it juz resolves itself...being bo chap about stuff like that's good. i shld be like that...i hate being gloomy and quiet.
ok so i guess i'm on a sudden swing...i shld be happy for what i have, not what i don't have. i shld be happy coz things are so much better now. isn't uni supposed to be better? i'm just never satisfied am i? more more more. i blame life, i blame others, i blame God...it's not my fault. why me? i know, i've gone through this here like, a thousand and one times...effie's sick of hearing me whine about it, i'm sick of whining about it. that's how messed up i am.
knock some sense into me.
i miss my secondary school life...
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-9:44:00 a.m.
went to montana's for dinner on wednesday with the pple at work :D all-u-can-eat-ribs dinner on greg!!!! the funny thing is, i hardly ever worked with them *haha* i just talk to them before we leave for the different places...coz i'm on the commercial crew and these are mostly the residential crews. dinner was for spring cleanup pple and the guyz that i work with are always new and switching so. but anyways, it was nice to see everyone all "dressed up" for once instead of being all dirty and grassy! *hehe*

so here's ramie, calli, liseann and michelle ^.^

jodi and me! darn it i look fat >.<

darrin, tanya and greg!

love michelle's hair *heehee* still can't believe she's naturally blonde @.@

wahahahaha! i love ramie :D she's awesome.
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Monday, June 13, 2005
-10:49:00 p.m.
uh-oh...what have i done??? O.O
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-10:46:00 p.m.

trans ams are so sweet. greg has the coolest convertible EVER.
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Sunday, June 12, 2005
-5:24:00 p.m.
i'm still shocked over how much i blushed yesterday...can't figure out what i'm feeling...
argh don't wanna think about it >.<"
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-4:39:00 p.m.
so here i am again staring at this blank space figuring out how to fill it up with the words of my life...random thoughts running though my head with no particular connections...
well first things first i guess...
sonomi's been staying over for the weekend and effie and i are just having a blast with her ^.^ i don't think i've ever gotten along so well with my sister's friend ever before (besides our church friends that is!) and it's really cool :D heehee effie actually said that we're kinda alike when we go crazy *haha!* oh man, u shld've seen us when we were at ichiban yesterday, squealing and giggling and doing stupid stuff!!! LOL! we're "entertainment" for effie the way she and cece's "entertainment" for me!!! *hahahaha* plus! she's taught me tons of jap stuff too :D awesome.
piano recital last sunday turned out weird :( after practicing
sentimental waltz for over 3 hrs straight in the afternoon and missing most of rainbow's party, i went up to tom 4 pieces before it's my turn and told him that i'm changing my piece to
canon in D...*haha* but how typical of me aye? i have a thing for being impulsive...or erm...how would u call this? i juz think i'm a really wilful person *haha* i dunno if that's bad but i feel like i'm only being myself when i do stuff like that...
so anyways, i ended up screwing up the piece still *haha* well...i guess u'll know i'm nervous when i screw up
canon in D!!! i've been playing that song for at least 4 years man!!! but i'm still glad i did it though...like i'm glad the one song that i'm ever gonna perform in my whole entire life is
canon in D :D too many memories associated with it ^.^
this friday's gonna be my last day at work coz i was planning on going for lots of church camps...but now i'm not so sure *haha* what a waste though, i'm gonna regret stopping work...gonna miss everybody so much!!! even darrin...*haha* i guess now that i'm juz used to him, he's actually realli funny! we were playing with his "invention" on friday, oh man it was so hilarious the way he was shooting crayons at the front of the truck!! *wahahahahaha* anyways yeah, i'll never forget the thousand things i've learnt at this job...how to appreciate sports cars :D how to work with a whole crew of guyz O.O a whole new perspective of things, learning more about the world of caucasians...like for once, i felt really included among whites :D hmm i think this job has really changed me alot ^.^
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Tuesday, June 07, 2005
-11:01:00 p.m.
久しぶり!!! tons to say but no mood to type (and since when did this blog become my events calendar anyways? >.<) *haha* but how weird...especially when i go though most of my days thinking about the stuff i'm gonna write in here!!! helps to distract me frm the exhaustion i guess :D
OH! and i got hooked on
学園アリス. a mix of kodacha, harry potter and meteor garden...what a great anime :D man i love that show!!! it's the sweetest thing ever ^.^

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