rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Thursday, July 28, 2005
-4:25:00 p.m.

i finally played the piano today...it felt so good. everything that's messed up, everything that's bothering me, everything that i feel...comes out of my fingertips and into the melody. who cares even if i screw up a little here and there? who cares if it's always the same old songs? canon in D, epilogue, inochi no namae, to zanarkland...it's between me and the piano. it soothes my soul...i would've probably gone insane if not for it.
the power of the piano...
only one other person can do that...and i miss our silent conversations. i desperately want to call u up soon.
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Monday, July 25, 2005
-2:44:00 p.m.

*heehee* presenting...
HOBO DUCK!!!! :D the latest addition to our k-days stuffed toys...besides all the carebears that we won last year! but my hobo ducky here is worth 50 bucks...and lots of hard work!!! *grinz* and it came with tons of warm and fuzzy feelings :D he's so funny when he's shy *heehee*
oh man k-days this year was awesome *hahahahahaha* except fireworks was cancelled...but that's ok! we had a great time still!!! ^.^ didn't play any rides as i expected *hahaha* and the hypnotizing thing was simply hilarious! haven't laughed so hard in my whole life!!! i think the 18+ one would've been even better!!! man i have GOT to watch that one next year! *heehee* well...if i'm not gonna be studying in japan that is...it'll be so sweet if everyone will be able to go together! ^.^ we met up with rainbow and that was so nice!!! we hung out the whole day and i got to know her so much better! ho hoi sum *heehee*
OH I GOT THE JOB AT SPORTCHEK!!!! :D so awesome!! so now i kinda have 3 jobs...ichiban, sportchek and an on-off job at solomon. actually no, i got a babysitting job recently too so i guess that makes 4! *haha*
I GET TO BABYSIT AIDAN!!!!! i'm so happy i can die!!! *heehee* hopefully i'll do a good job so they'll let me do it again! 2moro night man...i'm looking forward to it!!! have a training session for sportchek tonight...then might be going to ichiban to look for kobe ^.^ *wahahahahahaha* i might really get to see the birth of a mushroom-looking maki *GRINZ* that's so exciting!!!! but i hope it won't be too busy when i get there...ahhh i wonder when i'm gonna be able to start work at sportchek...wednesday? hopefully! coz i don't have that much time *haha* will be going vancouver soon so. ahhhh! i get to look for natalia!!! *yay!* finally i get to see somebody singapore again!!! *heehee*

ooooo and here's my eggie ^.^ keep forgetting to post a picture of her up!!! my i-have-to-speak-korean-to-her-for-her-to-understand-me cat *haha* she's so cute ^.^
anyways gtg la! have to get ready to leave soon...tata guys!!!
尋晚講完電話之後真係好開心啊 *heehee*
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Friday, July 22, 2005
-11:17:00 p.m.
ahhhh!!! it's raining again!!! :D i love it when it rains at night *heehee* just hope that it won't be raining by tomoro coz i don't want a wet k-day *haha* I'M SO EXCITED!!!!! going for k-days with ef, ce, brainy and kobe tomoro :D and maybe with dennis and fred too, depending if they're coming with us...oh and "sandy" too *hahaha* i hope we'll all have a good time ^.^ so happy ahhhh!! joanne said she'll be there tomoro too so we can all hook up at night and go watch the hallucinating thingy together *hee* only for 18 and above :D but i guess we can smuggle effie in with my id since everybody thinks we're twins! o.o *hahahahahaha* and then pretend cece's ken? *LOL!!!!* that might work *hahahahaha* i can't believe this: kobe took jeremy's id last year, borrowed joanne's glasses and snucked in as him O.O well if that works i'm sure cece can pass off as ken *LOL!*
then what ah? fireworks at night :D and winning tons of stuffed toys again!!! *haha* effie's plan of winning a big toy and walking around pretendning to be cool...*LOL!* i'm sure *heehee* since i doubt many of us are gonna go on the rides ^.^ i'll get a good night sleep tonight so i'll be all energetic for tomoro! man i was so tired for fellowship tonight coz of work O.O was moving the entire school man...literally *haha* frm the 2nd floor to the 5th flood *gulp* oh wells! but then i think the unpacking will be worse...
hmm i have an interview at sportchek on sunday...hopefully they'll hire me! if not...kobe said we can go apply at espirit together coz apparently henry says they're hiring tons of pple ^.^ that's good too coz then i get to wear expensive clothes :D and it's only 1% commission so it's not too much pressure to sell!
ehh what else ah...i got the kobe-problem settled lu!!! so happy *hahahaha* settled in my brain at least! it's going good now ^.^ and it'll be so sweet if i really get the job at sportchek :D
world's masters' game's happening in edmonton!!! was gonna watch the opening...but i'm not even sure when it is though *heehee* but yeah, me and kobe's planning on going to watch some events b4 k-days tomoro so...will be cool!!! we might even get to see some diving stuff and all!!! yeah we met this woman who told us the time and stuff coz she was a participant right? *heehee* it's like watching the olympics man!!!! without all the extra fees too!!!
OH MAN I'M SO EXCITED ABOUT TOMORO!!!!
can u tell? *heehee*
真係好開心啊...
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Monday, July 18, 2005
-8:38:00 p.m.
crapcrapcrap this is so messed up!!! >.< ok i just reformatted the computer and i realized that we don't have the new photos in the external drive O.O i thought i did it...seriously! i was so sure...crap. this means that ALL the photos that we put in since the last reformatation is gone. GONE! just like that...but then i wouldn't have been able to transfer the photos even if i knew coz windows explorer was screwed up too...still, i wouldn't have reformatted the computer if i knew...i would've thought of a way to get those photos out...DARN IT!!!!!!! i'm so pissed. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! there goes cece's birthday photos and our XOC photos and our camping photos...WHAT THE H!!!!! i'm gonna get killed...i'm gonna kill myself even if nobody kills me.
oh man. i still can't believe it...
anyways. i don't wanna think about it...being angry won't get me back the pictures...so. yeah, been really busy lately...with VBS and just going out. had a really short part-time work today *haha* coz i was talking to this auntie yesterday about me looking for another job (since i quitted lawn maintainence) and so she got me in her school today to help her pack stuff coz they're gonna be painting the school ^.^ i think she expected me to take 2 days to finish it but then i finished it in 3 hours *haha* and she pays me by the hours aye? so i guess i could've done it slower *LOL* oh wells! so i earned 21bucks today :D ah! speaking of which...i need to go back to the warehouse to grab my cheque...i keep forgetting >.< but then it's so far and inaccessable!!! :( might have to bother uncle dave to drive me there and back again...but i'll feel so bad!!! *sigh*
yeah what else's been happening...everybody's been bugging me about hobo. the thing is, we've been going out alot together and so pple think we're dating but we're not. seriously, i really don't care what the heck other pple think as long as we're both sure about the way we are...i mean, we have a great time together and i don't think there's anything wrong with good friends hanging out especially when it's summer and we have so much time to spend. plus, we both work at the same place so it's only natural -_- but yeah, despite all that said...my mum got on my case too and now i'm not sure what to do. coz to be frank, what she said does make sense...even if it's really old-fashioned. the only thing i don't agree with her is how we shldn't date for fun...but then i would think that's how God wants us to be...right? to date only the one u're gonna be marrying...and that has to be the one He has planned out for ur life. i think that's quite a sensitive issue...coz lots of strong christians date not only for marriage either...and i know my parents are extremely old-fashioned in this sense but then it seems right though. i wanna follow the way i feel, but i know that the way i feel might not always be right. and it's like, i'm not even dating him now...not yet anyways. but the question is, shld we continue hanging out so much if nothing's gonna be coming out of it? coz it'll just hinder other pple and it'll make a bad name for the both of us. ok then if sth IS gonna come out of it, shld i even date yet? can i do it for fun? it doesn't sound right...i mean, i guess if i do date him, we gotta wait...coz i've only known the guy for like, a month. so then...if we're waiting, shld we hang out during this time?? it's annoying. i wish things weren't so complicated...it's not supposed to be! all we have going on is an innocent friendship and i'm getting to know one of the most click-ish-with-me person i've ever known all my life. i don't really wanna give it up...sigh. and i was having sucha good time too...
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Wednesday, July 06, 2005
-4:07:00 p.m.
yo! yeah i know i said i'll be too busy to blog...but then i felt like it today! found these quotes from the emails i got frm jas, suz and neha *haha* (yes they were all the same emails!!) but i thought these quotes really stood out...so! here they are...they're so sweet! :D
"Love is what makes you smile when you're tired."
Terri - age 4
"Love is what's in the room with you at Christmas if you stop opening presents and listen."
Bobby - age 7
"Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well."
Tommy - age 6
then oh yeah...ripped this off adri's blog! *heehee* u'll forgive me won't u? :P thought that it was really interesting and i haven't done quizzes in a while so yeah! *haha* read it or not...have fun! u can do it too!!! :D
THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. eden
2. yi kwan (though only my grandma in hk calls me that!)
3. beer garden O.O *LOL!*
THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. (*)¤ғяǿžέй mϋ§ħгδõМ¤(*)
2. cuteangel *LOL!* yeah...that was like what, 6-7 years ago?
3. Eden_the_Garden
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my hair :D
2. my hair :D
3. my hair :D
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON'T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. my ass *LOL!*
2. my shortness...
3. i'm fatttttttttt *haha* i'm sucha girl :X
THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. chinese
2. chinese
3. chinese *LOL!* though i seriously think there might be some...korean blood in me due the fact that all koreans tend to think that i'm korean! and my mum says that we probably have some white blood frm her line...O.O
THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. WRIST
2. slashing/cutting ur wrist
3. just saying that *gulp*
THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. my bed
2. the toilet!!!
3. a shower...
THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING RIGHT NOW:
1. contact lenses *haha*
2. t-shirt
3. pants
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. 浜崎歩!!!
2. Twins
3. 周杰倫
i dunno, i listen to practically everything...*haha* can i do more than 3???
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS: (crap there's too many...)
1. Cookies - 派對動物
2. I Wish - For Featurer
3. 周杰倫 - 擱淺
THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. FUN! tons of laughing :D
2. ability to talk deep :D
3. for God to bless it ^.^
THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. looks *err yeah obviously!*
2. how well we click...
3. ability to get along well with kids and animals :D
THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. going out ^.^
2. computer stuff!!! watching d/l-ed animes, dramas, going online :D
3. playing the piano ahhhh!
THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. :X
2. going out
3. drive
THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. JAPAN!!!
2. hongkong!
3. singapore :D *haha* i have more though...
THREE KID'S NAMES YOU LIKE:
1. rain (for a girl ^.^)
2. sky (for a boy ^.^)
3. i dunno...i need something else original...*haha*
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY:
1. i like being alone sometimes...i find cliques and clutters annoying *haha* not sure if all guyz are like that though...
2. i'm good at math *LOL!*
3. i hate crying. even though i do it too...big boys don't cry...*haha*
THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. i ALWAYS think i'm fat, coz i am! *LOL!*
2. i have a thing for babies, kids and animals :D
3. i like guys??? *hahahahahaha* i'm running out of ideas...
THREE CELEB CRUSHES:
1. 滝沢秀明
2. 木村拓哉
3. won bin
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Monday, July 04, 2005
-9:31:00 p.m.
oooo it's been a while again...so much happened the past couple of days i can barely put it all into words >.< fun times though, fun times :D
i'm in the midst of quitting my job right now, called greg a couple of minutes ago while he was driving so he's supposed to call me back. then i'll break the news to him @.@ crap i'm so scared *haha*
i'm not gonna say, "i don't think i can't work"...i'm gonna say, "i won't be able to work". isn't it? well at least that's what kobe said i shld say...i'm the one making the decision here anyways so.
darn it ya know what, i think he's gonna forget. he's gonna drive to the house and forget that he's supposed to call me back -_- just wait and see, it's so greg man *haha*
so, what else's been up? hmm...made a rash decision today to take in inae's kitten for the month while she's back in korea. and now i can't find the kitten *LOL!* it's lost and hiding somewhere in my house o.o geez man!! but then again, inae says it'll appear once it's hungry *LOL!* it's a really cute kitten too! sooooooo glad i'm getting the experience of taking care of a kitten b4 i get my own :D even if it's only for a month! can't wait to get my own kitten man!!! :D :D :D
oh! yea *haha* i thought i shld clear this up with u guys after reading tiara's comment *haha!* hobo's not really a hobo...that's just me and effie's nickname for kobe ^.^ coz at first effie thought his name was hobe or sth so yea...u shld know it got frm there!
mm...then...oh yeah, was away at joshua camp the past week for 4 days and WOW. what an experience! *haha* we did wilderness camping, hiking, swimming in a river, climbing up a "mountain" etc etc. oh man it was cool :D well...obviously with some crapped up moments and mood swings but overall, it was awesome!
alright, i gtg! probably more later...if i come back on again anytime soon >.< so. busy.
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