rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Monday, July 18, 2005
-8:38:00 p.m.
crapcrapcrap this is so messed up!!! >.< ok i just reformatted the computer and i realized that we don't have the new photos in the external drive O.O i thought i did it...seriously! i was so sure...crap. this means that ALL the photos that we put in since the last reformatation is gone. GONE! just like that...but then i wouldn't have been able to transfer the photos even if i knew coz windows explorer was screwed up too...still, i wouldn't have reformatted the computer if i knew...i would've thought of a way to get those photos out...DARN IT!!!!!!! i'm so pissed. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! there goes cece's birthday photos and our XOC photos and our camping photos...WHAT THE H!!!!! i'm gonna get killed...i'm gonna kill myself even if nobody kills me.
oh man. i still can't believe it...
anyways. i don't wanna think about it...being angry won't get me back the pictures...so. yeah, been really busy lately...with VBS and just going out. had a really short part-time work today *haha* coz i was talking to this auntie yesterday about me looking for another job (since i quitted lawn maintainence) and so she got me in her school today to help her pack stuff coz they're gonna be painting the school ^.^ i think she expected me to take 2 days to finish it but then i finished it in 3 hours *haha* and she pays me by the hours aye? so i guess i could've done it slower *LOL* oh wells! so i earned 21bucks today :D ah! speaking of which...i need to go back to the warehouse to grab my cheque...i keep forgetting >.< but then it's so far and inaccessable!!! :( might have to bother uncle dave to drive me there and back again...but i'll feel so bad!!! *sigh*
yeah what else's been happening...everybody's been bugging me about hobo. the thing is, we've been going out alot together and so pple think we're dating but we're not. seriously, i really don't care what the heck other pple think as long as we're both sure about the way we are...i mean, we have a great time together and i don't think there's anything wrong with good friends hanging out especially when it's summer and we have so much time to spend. plus, we both work at the same place so it's only natural -_- but yeah, despite all that said...my mum got on my case too and now i'm not sure what to do. coz to be frank, what she said does make sense...even if it's really old-fashioned. the only thing i don't agree with her is how we shldn't date for fun...but then i would think that's how God wants us to be...right? to date only the one u're gonna be marrying...and that has to be the one He has planned out for ur life. i think that's quite a sensitive issue...coz lots of strong christians date not only for marriage either...and i know my parents are extremely old-fashioned in this sense but then it seems right though. i wanna follow the way i feel, but i know that the way i feel might not always be right. and it's like, i'm not even dating him now...not yet anyways. but the question is, shld we continue hanging out so much if nothing's gonna be coming out of it? coz it'll just hinder other pple and it'll make a bad name for the both of us. ok then if sth IS gonna come out of it, shld i even date yet? can i do it for fun? it doesn't sound right...i mean, i guess if i do date him, we gotta wait...coz i've only known the guy for like, a month. so then...if we're waiting, shld we hang out during this time?? it's annoying. i wish things weren't so complicated...it's not supposed to be! all we have going on is an innocent friendship and i'm getting to know one of the most click-ish-with-me person i've ever known all my life. i don't really wanna give it up...sigh. and i was having sucha good time too...
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