rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Saturday, February 11, 2006
-12:50:00 a.m.
crap my eyes are puffy again.
and i'm pretty sure it's not pms this time..
how can there be so many ppl around me and yet none i can talk to? i don't know if it's a matter of opening up, or maybe it's just me
i'm not like those who have many friends. i'm not that normal kind of girl. i don't have a clique and close friends and a boyfriend all at the same time. i'm one of those who don't...and you need to know that i really don't have any friends to fall on.
and i'm not like her, who's totally dependent on him. i don't want to be...coz how can i stand if you're gone?
some stuff are just left unsaid, and sometimes i really
am sad, or frustrated over something trivial. even if it sounds more like i'm mad or something...but i wouldn't say it. but i don't expect you to know it, coz i know i'm the one who's not saying it. it's up to you to take sides, would you brush it aside as me getting mad over nothing? or would you actually get worried that i'm sad? maybe i'm doing it too much, maybe i'm just too emotional for you to care everytime.
i think i actually care about lots of stuff, it's just that i don't want to think about it. but the problem is, i guess some things can only distract you for so long...
i got jealous today looking at her and her. with all the best-friends-i-know-you-so-well stuff going on, i suddenly felt lonely. it's been 3 years, it hasn't been a fun ride. sure it's training but is it necessary? i don't know.
i need somebody to talk to.
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