rediscovering eden
Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
dailies
Friday, November 03, 2006
-11:03:00 p.m.
facing up to the harshness of reality...isn't fun. sometimes i think i'm so idealistic that when u show me what life is really like, i feel like running away from it because i don't like it.
today my friend suddenly asked me if i was gonna work during this summer and get more experience with being an accountant, especially since this is my last summer before graduation. well of coz i replied flat out no coz i'm going back to asia and i've been planning this trip since forever. i mean, i've been looking forward to going back to japan and meeting my host parents, singapore and meeting my friends, and hong kong and touring with all the people that i'm flying back with and it has never crossed my mind that i'll give that up...after waiting for 3 years. and she said, well i guess u'll have a hard time finding a job when u graduate then...
that didn't strike me as hard as after when i was talking to kobe about it and he agreed with what she said. i guess technically speaking, i'm being stupid and wasting my last summer playing elsewhere when i should be looking for a summer job that gives me the experience, and so an advantage over other graduate students, especially since i'm not a co-op student too. i'm probably at the bottom of employers' lists when i apply for their jobs because of my average grades, lack of experience and true passion for accounting.
but seriously speaking, how can i weigh the importance of going back and staying? i never really cared about my post-graduation, i just assumed i'll find a job...plus, i didn't really care about accounting. i don't really wanna not go back just to look for a job that i'll be working all my life after i graduate anyways but yeah, that's probably just me being childish. i guess to grow up, certain sacrifices has to be made...but i've yet to decide. maybe i can do a compromise and work only for 2 months...if such firms exists. but i'll see.
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